65 ~ Bridal Bliss
Been a bit behind with blogging partially due to the fact that I’ve been under the weather. Last week I was down and out with the flu, and yesterday I had a much needed physical done. Was told I have tonsillitis, an ear infection, and some other feminine problems — nothing serious but ugh never a good thing to hear how unhealthy you are.
Bottom line was most of my ailments were caused by lack of sleep (God my Dad would feel like he earned his doctor stripes if I told him that one), working too much, and stress. It wasn’t really a surprise to me as I’ve been running on empty for much of the last year and a half. This night job is kicking my butt, and while I do enjoy the decent salary and job security, I’m starting to think it’s not worth my health. I’ve got some serious decisions to make, but not until Tommy gets into the police academy, which we are all hoping will start upon our return from Mexico!
Anywho…the revelation that I am essentially unhealthy got me thinking about how my life has changed since I’ve gone full steam ahead in the planning process, especially financially and mentally. I’ve noticed all my time and money has gone toward the wedding preparations, almost to an obsession, lol. Every day is focused on the wedding in some way or another. But I guess having a glorious wedding experience will all make it worth while right?
I’ve also come to realize that I absolutely LOVE being a bride and all the bells and whistles that come with it. It’s exciting to see it all come together, stress, bills and all. I honestly think I could have a wonderful time having a sideline career that is wedding related — my mom even suggested this to me today. What though, I don’t know, but I do know that I love the idea of celebrating love between two people!!!
In realizing this, I must also acknowledge the fact that I will likely be down in the dumps when it’s all finally over. When the big day has passed, when the champagne has fizzled, when my beautiful dress is confined to a box… *sigh* But I guess that’s what fabulous pictures, video and memories are for right?
But instead of dwelling in the inevitable, I think I’ll just continue to enjoy and savor the process. Afterall, the feelings of euphoria and excitement as a bride will only happen once 🙂